i sent the same thing on whatsapo but i know you blocked me.
do with this what you will, i dont care. respond or dont. i just want to be heard and i want you to know.
recently youve been crossing my mind a lot. ive been looking at pslibs stories, checking for you amywhere, gaining all info i could, exporting all the chats. its making me sick to my stomach. i cant ever have you back, youll never be in my life again. on one hand its amazing, on the other hand it hurts so much ive been wanting to relapse. i domt know. im officially with david now. im incredibly hapoy about that but im so so so sour about why we couldnt have that together. why couldnt we have been happy. im also upset you got the final strike. you sent me email, i tried to respond. i hand wrote 3 big notes to send you back in the book. but to no avail - you didnt wanna dig in it anymore. you wanted to leave it alone. i wish you read them.
iive gone through chats. you knew about my tendencies. you knew all along. (message/cent from last years november where i wasnt doing well). i dont know what to think. it might be the side effects from the meds im taking but ive been starting to cry at the slightest things. ithey reminded me of you.
i dont know if i can ever truly forget you. i hope you can safely move on, spiting me and knowing i was in the wrong. i hope ill only be able to do the same.
pac, pusu. alex